2013

It’s been a whirlwind of a 2012, you guys. Obviously, this is cliché of me to say, I mean everybody says something to this degree in summation of their year… I think. Right?

These past two weeks have been a little unsettling and concerning to me due to some spontaneous events that have come up in my family that leave me uneasy as we usher in 2013. I really, really hope that this recent “badness” is a purging of all the awful that will happen this year and that 2013 will be filled with fortune and happiness. My poor dad hasn’t been catching much luck lately it seems, and it hurts my heart so much :( Hopefully it’ll all work out and good karma will work its ways.

Personally, 2012 has been me fearing graduation and the real world. I feel like I’m inching toward knowing what I want in life/my career every single day and wish I had more time to think about my future in conjunction with concentrating on academics. My stomach gets in knots whenever I start looking for jobs, and I find so many interesting jobs but don’t know if I am as qualified as I think I am or fit the employer’s expectations. But the job descriptions make me want to work there so much! With the economy and job market faring so badly, finding a job after graduation concerns me a lot. I’m not in a position where I can really lolly-gag around for a year or do an unpaid internship so finding a job is a must. I cross my fingers for all the confidence and ambition in the world for good results by May 2013.

Through the course of 2012, I reminded myself constantly how fortunate I am to have the people I do in my life, the opportunity to be able to attend college, ingredients to bake delicious things, and spare funds to buy nice clothes and eat good food. This is a very, very short list of things I am thankful for. I have a deeper understanding of how hard my parents work for my siblings and me to have the comfortable life we live along with the supplemental help my aunt and uncle provide. So. Thankful.

In 2013, I wish for opportunities, for continuation of relationships that make me so content and joyful, and for the safety and fortune of my family. If these three things could be held constant, I would be ever so happy.

Happy New Year, everyone! Thank you for taking the time to read, and I hope this blog can make great[er] leaps this year :)

The most beautiful song to me at this moment. I reminds me of the happy in my life.